Heroine\drug addiction… family crisis

I feel for those going through this crisis.  I once was in a situation that involved heroin, cocaine and alcohol addiction. Thankfully I didn’t become one of the addicts, I was an enabler. Enablers are souls that are lost, lost because they feel as though they can tell no one, they lose friends and family because of embarrassing situations that have happened while with the addict.
My situation was like a lot of families involved with drug abuse, you feel helpless and hopeless. .. where do you go for help, how do you live?  I lived on a roller coaster for 11 years. I was naive when it came to hard drugs and like most enablers believed I could change the addict. I began to go to every meeting available, sometimes twice in one day; reading and following A A steps. I went to every -anon meeting I could find; looking for “the answer”.
As I became stronger and learned why I was an enabler, I realized I COULD not change the addict, they have to reach their bottom.
It’s hard to tough love these individuals;  but when you have children you must take into account what is going to happen if you stay with the addict. I did and tried everything; one day after a meeting my daughter looks at me and says “mommy. .. we need to zivorce daddy don’t we”?  Broke my heart to hear that out of a baby’s mouth. But eventually I reached my bottom; leaving behind a life of worry about the addict and moving on with my life and taking care of my children.
When I hear about some of our states having huge issues with heroin addiction, I cry for those families and yes I cry for the addict. ..they live for drugs…and too many times die for drugs.
As for the addict I left behind… they struggled for many years.. but finally got clean… I can’t say that they are at peace because it is a daily struggle to stay clean. .. I pray for them daily.
I still get nauseated when I see needles… I guess that’s just a reminder of my pain so long ago..
If you are in need of help…Please seek it don’t wait many years like I did…help yourself… you will be helping them even though at the time you are not so sure if you’re making the right decision!
(May God bless and watch over you and your family!!)
Food for thought.. “Google” heroin addiction. .. on you tube etc. Pretty sad stuff! And most importantly… get and/or ask for help.


About whimsicalwanderingsofluvroses99

I love to travel the states and have done a little traveling overseas, not as much as I'd love to. .I LOVE life, life is what you make it, so I enjoy it as much as I can! :-)
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